Anxiety is a bitch. Or, perhaps better stated, I am anxiety’s bitch. I have been thinking. a lot. lately. So much is becoming crystal clear as I make the time and take the time to understand the “why” instead of accept the “am”. I wonder what has shaped me to be this way. Why […]
I blew it. Sort of. I drank wine Sat. night. I wanted it. I thought I would be in control. And I was… as much as a kid is in a candy store. I was filled with a hysteria of excitement and anticipation; a sense of rebirth and awakening. I felt like me… the me that […]
Have you ever noticed that middle-aged women are rarely the center of any light-humored novels? There is no “Bridget Jones: Married and Magnificent”. There is no “Drunk, Divorced and Covered in Cat Hair, Part 2: Recovered, Remarried and Denouncing Dander”. No. Middle-aged women seem to be relegated to the brooding, unhappy and looking-to-be-a-home-wrecker type of […]
I have never been an overly-emotional human being. I used to pride myself on being able to keep a dry eye in the face of overwhelming bullshit. I was weirdly proud of that. It seemed like a badge of strength that I secretly wore. It was my superhero power. Ms. Steelnerves. At least I used […]
Ok. I made it to nine. I made it through a WHOLE weekend, including an 11 year old birthday party at a hotel with six kids (including the minister’s daughter which seems way, way more stressful than it should be). I thought A LOT about drinking. Chardonnay. Please? Really. I am serious. I need/want/can’t possibly […]
Anger. It is an interesting emotion. Sure, I can rage with the best of them after too many glasses of magic mouth laxative, but half the time I can’t remember what I actually said or if I really meant it. True, thought out, justifiable anger… that’s one of those emotions that leaves me paralyzed, inarticulate and […]
Typically my drive home was filled with anticipation of the magic elixir of happiness and release waiting for me the moment I crossed my home threshold.