Deep

The more I explore issues of my addiction, the more I circle back to the strangle-hold that anxiety has on my life.  I never stopped to think that my behavior and thinking patterns were a result of something that was not 100% in my control.  I never stopped to think that other people don’t think […]

Realization

Anxiety is a bitch.  Or, perhaps better stated, I am anxiety’s bitch. I have been thinking.  a lot.  lately. So much is becoming crystal clear as I make the time and take the time to understand the “why” instead of accept the “am”. I wonder what has shaped me to be this way.   Why […]

Crash and Burn. 5a

I blew it.  Sort of. I drank wine Sat. night.  I wanted it.  I thought I would be in control.  And I was… as much as a kid is in a candy store.  I was filled with a hysteria of excitement and anticipation; a sense of rebirth and awakening.  I felt like me… the me that […]